Tuesday, 06 October 2009
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Falling in and out of love, back and forth
What happens if you think you're falling out of love with someone? I still have that family love for him, that "I would give you the shirt off my back" love, but it's like I've almost completely lost interest in him. He even said it himself last night "I don't think I'm interesting enough for you" I tried to sit there and reassure him that he was, why? Why did I when I'm cheating? I keep feeling the slightest tinge of guilt but continue to do it whenever I can. The other guy sparks my interest for some reason and he wants to be nothing else but the other man, well I figured as much since he knows I'm with somebody. I know there might be alot of judgement coming towards me after this blog. Alot of people might say I'm heartless for trying to reassure someone they're still the love of my life, when in actuality I don't want that kind of love anymore. I'm just so confused, he's my bestfriend, the only one I confide in and the man that's there for me whenever I need him.Somedays he disgusts me, it gives me a headache just to hear him talk and other days I feel deeply in love, wanting nobody but him and swearing that I will NOT text this guy again.....I'm completely lost and I'm so desperate to find out what's wrong with me. Am I just not ready for love? He's leaving for Miami Saturday, I'm supposed to move down there with him in the next couple of weeks but Lord knows I don't know if that's the right move if I'm feeling this way....
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