What happens if you think you're falling out of love with someone? I still have that family love for him, that "I would give you the shirt off my back" love, but it's like I've almost completely lost interest in him. He even said it himself last night "I don't think I'm interesting enough for you" I tried to sit there and reassure him that he was, why? Why did I when I'm cheating? I keep feeling the slightest tinge of guilt but continue to do it whenever I can. The other guy sparks my interest for some reason and he wants to be nothing else but the other man, well I figured as much since he knows I'm with somebody. I know there might be alot of judgement coming towards me after this blog. Alot of people might say I'm heartless for trying to reassure someone they're still the love of my life, when in actuality I don't want that kind of love anymore. I'm just so confused, he's my bestfriend, the only one I confide in and the man that's there for me whenever I need him.Somedays he disgusts me, it gives me a headache just to hear him talk and other days I feel deeply in love, wanting nobody but him and swearing that I will NOT text this guy again.....I'm completely lost and I'm so desperate to find out what's wrong with me. Am I just not ready for love? He's leaving for Miami Saturday, I'm supposed to move down there with him in the next couple of weeks but Lord knows I don't know if that's the right move if I'm feeling this way....

I had my baby July 25th. Azaria Trenaye Watts She was 7 lbs 1 oz, my smallest baby. it was the easiest labor I've had but also the longest. The dr. gave me a date to enduce me which took FOREVER, they enduced me because she kept moving so they needed to deliver her while her head was down. they kept giving me medicine to get me dialated and it took the whole night until around 10 in the morning, I seriously only felt 2 or 3 contractions because they kept pain meds in me then an epidural (which messed up my leg it still feels kinda numb) I could barely feel the contractions to push, I hate when drs have that annoyed tone in their voices "Ok, cmon now push" hello you did give me this strong ass epidural that knocked out any indications I had of pain, lol whatever. ANYWAY, my baby's healthy she looks like me, just not as light. After a huge argument me and my SO had, we haven't argued over petty things at all...The fight was that serious and we saw what we both were really trippin about. I'm starting to get stircrazy though, even though I'm constantly gone, doing mommy things...signing my oldest up for pre-k, dentist, WIC, drs appts, hearing/visions screenings, getting ANOTHER copy of birth certs, it's so much and it never ends and my mom always tells me "welcome to motherhood" I like staying busy I just want to be able to do it all, you know? Look good, be a great mom/partner and cook and keep the house clean (impossible when u live with 10 people and 3 dogs) My so does help out a whole lot, always makes sure he has at least one baby lol. takes them so me and the baby can sleep, watches the kids when i run these errands, i'm really greatful. The keys r sticking though so bye!

 I'm not really frustrated or mad about this situation just a bit distraught because my mom won't take action. Here's the story: My brother, boyfriend and their friends (grown men) make a spot down in the basement to hang out. This way no one is coming through the front door late at night, they can smoke downstairs, etc. Guys stuff, whatever. It's cool until I see my 13 year old sister down there 24/7, then she moves a matress into one of the backrooms and starts sleeping down there. The basement is not even finished, not even close, it just has a few couches set up with a tv and a table in one room. The backdoor to the basement doesn't even lock, it's broken all it does is close. My sister won't listen to a word I say, so I ask my boyfriend to speak to her, she didn't listen to him either. I tell my mom and she's so focused on telling me I'm "competting" with my 13 yr old sister, that I'm jealous...She's completely not looking at the fact that a 13 year old girl chills with GROWN ASS MEN, she says she's "one of the guys". NO, no she's not "one of the guys" one of the guys would be not wearing hoochie shorts laying on the couch with her legs spread wide for the world to see her cooch...And yes, these guys well some of them look at her as a little sister she comes off as grown and who knows what could happen? What if someone decides they wanna tap that and come over late as hell after everyone but her stupid ass has gone upstairs? You can't hear anything downstairs except for the music if its blaring. To make it worse, my mom and uncle are leaving...She's leaving for NC and my uncle's going to SC 4th of July weekend so neither of them will be here and I'm like "So, where is she going while ya'll are away" The answer---nowhere. Are you serious? She doesn't listen to me? UGH!